epiphany

I'm finally done with my 6 week elective in ENT and it was so so amazing.

Its hard to put it in words but I guess bittersweet would be the best word to describe what I'm feeling.

ENT was not even one of my choices when I first applied but I'm glad things turned out the way it did. 

Awesome doctors. I don't even know how to convey the awesomeness that they are. That's how awesome they are. I'm sorry if I sound rather bimbotic but that's just the way it is.

I've always wondered if this is really what I want to do with my life. 

After all, medicine has the tendency to take over your whole life which is intimidating to say the least.

But after 4 years of being a medical student and with less than a year till I graduate, I am finally certain that this is the right path for me. 

breakdown

It came sooner than later.

"It doesn't matter if you fail."

Best thing I've heard today.

weird

On a random whim, I decided to log into blogspot after a long hiatus.

And amazingly, it's been exactly one year since my last post.

Even though I not someone who believes in fate and destiny and all...this is just too weird!

I just realised how much I've missed blogging. 

I guess absence does make the heart grow fonder.

I hope you guys haven't missed me too much!

*silence*

....who am I kidding? 

No one reads my blog!!

*sobs pathetically*

Anyway, I don't care.

You guys just wait till I'm rich and famous and then we'll see who's laughing.

sniff.

On a more serious note, I am now in my psych posting.

It's really interesting seeing patients and getting to know them.

But it's scary as well because it makes me think that anyone could end up as a psychiatric patient.

Alienists. That's what psychiatrists were known as in the olden days.

Meaning that psych patients were considered aliens. Which I think was very unfair because labelling these people as aliens makes them seem like outcasts of society.

After all, we're all crazy in some way or another.

We just know how to hide it well.

Yours truly,

an alien in hiding

korean dramas ruined my life

that cute guy in your favourite romantic movie doesn't exist.

never have.

never will.

ohhh wellllll.

hot summer.

oh save me from this sweltering heat.

everyday i wake up and am pleasantly surprised that my extremities have not melted off.

if you didn't know, I have a tag attached to my body stating "Caution: Exposure to high temperatures may lead to hands and feet melting"

so yeah, to say that I'm worried would be an understatement.

Darn all these non-green people.

Don't they know what's global warming.

Ever heard of being eco-friendly? Which stands for ecosystem by the way, not economy.

which reminds me of a funny story.

okay, it's not a story story if you know what I mean.

(just in case you don't know what i mean by story story. well, it's not an imaginary made-up fiction that I created while daydreaming. it's a true story. which is fact. and really, if you are still reading this you really should stop because I'm going off tangent so STOP for goodness sake. thank you.)

so. once upon a time, I was walking in the shopping mall.

and THEN a crowd of people gathered around a stage caught my attention.

wow. so exciting right.

a crowd of people! around a stage!

tell me what else is more exciting. it doesn't get any better than this.

okay so on the stage there were roughly 15 heavily made-up women in sparkly floor-sweeping gowns.

guess what.

Miss [insert country here] [insert relevant planet here] 2011

and basically it went like this.

"Hello my name is Geena Gim Gee Goo. I am a secretary. It is very important that we take care of our Planet. Planet Day is not just one day. In fact, everyday is Planet Day. Thank you and good day. Have a great day everyone!"

earth-shattering. oh wait, i mean planet shattering.

there wasn't any quarantine or anything of that sort so it was like the same speech regurgitated again and again.

some with better grammar. some with more hand gestures. some with strange accents (which is another story altogether)

but. all with "Thank you! Have a great day!"

I will, thanks.

By now you'd probably realize that I lied.

It's not funny at all.

But even then...

I'm just like that you know, I somehow manage to remove the funniness out of things.

A joke? Is that a type of hamburger?

Yeah.

anyway, no offence to Ms Geena Gim Gee Goo if she actually exists.

And also no offence to secretaries.

ooops. there goes my finger. plop!

like i said. misunderstood.

was that a wrong decision?

it definitely feels wrong now.

i never intended for it to turn out that way

neither did i expect it

but i guess i can only learn from it.

i just hope that it doesn't spoil a friendship

andddd in other news....

i flunked for the first time ever.

i guess there's a first for everything.

but i'm quite okay about it. just really bummed.

i mean, life goes on, clocks still tick and butterflies still butter

update: talking to a friend helps to put things into perspective. C:

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eyecandies <3